Thursday, December 09, 2004
I am so full of words, but I'm not sure how many will make it out here.
I hate how these websites have become trendy. I used to be the only one, and now I am slightly bitter. But it could be the rain.
I am feeling a lot of things. My heart is overwhelmed and my head hurts from thinking things through a million times. Alford is still my favorite place, because it is something that doesn't change. There I can be myself. I can do silly swing dances with Janna and Crystal, hug Grant for as long as I want to, and fall asleep on center stage. No one thinks I'm dramatic or emotional or ignorant. They just love. We all love there. I'm commended and thrown around and teased. Boys pick me up off the floor and look at me and offer a cheek for a kiss. No questions asked. No ties between us except genuine affection.
My room feels like home sometimes, and sometimes it doesn't. Connecticut feels like home. I miss the East Coast. I miss my parents. I can't wait to see them tomorrow. I am mellow today.
If you don't feel anything, you can't be hurt or upset. If you don't get your hopes up, you don't get let down. And when nice things happen, you are pleasantly surprised. As you grow up, you deal with disappointment much more gracefully. Or at least you try.
8 days until Christmas break. 16 days until Christmas.
It's about time.
. celebrate . `@ 12:55 PM
