Friday, June 04, 2004
It's late but everything is right in my world.
I just watched a scary movie and Ben had to follow me home from Erik's.
Tomorrow (today!) is Rachel's gradumatation!!
Bedtime.
. celebrate . `@ 2:15 AM
Wednesday, June 02, 2004
You know that feeling you get when you're eating warm brownies? Yeah, I've had that for the last two days.
Memorial Day -- to be remembered. Mall with justabouteveryone. Rae tried on dresses for her gradumatation, but the options left much to be desired. McDonald's fries and a choclate shake. Ben + Snow arrived in the midst of a "Friends" marathon at Erik's. Chad, Erik, Ralph, Dayna, Ben and I went to the Neptune Diner and ate more food we shouldn't. Snow came home with me and we cuddled in bed.
Today -- laughter and tears. Emotions are running high around this stressed-out household. I walked Snow for 45 minutes this morning. 15 minutes short of our normal workout, but whatever. He was fine. Ben came over, and we cleaned my room and watched TV and made bagels. Chad and Dayna joined us, and we went to the mall. Bought Ben a whole new outfit at ExpressMen + Filene's. Bought new pants, jeans and flip flops that match Ben's at AE. Dinner with the family. The Miss Universe pageant with my grandmother. Out to Bickford's with Chad, Ralph and Erik. Lots of talk about 'the bet' and shoomashky stuff.
It's hard to see my grandmother deteriorating, mentally now as well as physically. She's doing so well - better than we expected - but it's still hard and full of work. Ben is so good with her. One of the gajillion reasons I know he's in my life right now for a reason. I couldn't be with someone right now who didn't know how to handle my grandmother or her illness. Watching her slide downhill is painful. Her eyes are still bright and blue, but that's all that remains of this tiny woman who helped raise me. Spontaneous tears occur often.
The fact that Snow is leaving for Jersey in the morning doesn't help much, either. We have grown so attached to each other, and not waking up to his spotted tongue and kangaroo bounces for the next two months is ripping me up. I know he'll think I've abandoned him, when in all reality, he just can't stay here because of Grammy.
It's a wonderful, squidgy, cry-y, giggly sort of night, and I still have a boyfriend who needs his bedtime phone call. Even if he is at Erik's with Chad. And the Swedish one and the hairy one can both be extremely cuddly.
Good night. *blows kisses*
. celebrate . `@ 12:39 AM
Monday, May 31, 2004
It's been busybusy since I came home, but would I change that? Of course not.
I grandma-sat yesterday morning, then went to the picnic at Liberty in the afternoon. We bounced on the moonwalk, ate death by chocolate, and used up rolls of film. Ashley went to the barn with me, and we decided that I am going to teach her how to ride a horse this summer. Back to Liberty, then to Tom's house, then to Home Depot, then home. Grandma-sat some more.
Girls' night at Ash and Bekah's. It was a good time. We ate hot dogs, picked up Crystal, drove around Wallingford and watched 'Coyote Ugly'. I feel so relaxed and happy today. Probably because I got my girl time, and now my boy is coming. And my puppy!!
Ralph and I are going to have a "Friends" marathon and maybe I will bake him cookies.
. celebrate . `@ 8:06 AM
