Thursday, December 09, 2004
I am so full of words, but I'm not sure how many will make it out here.
I hate how these websites have become trendy. I used to be the only one, and now I am slightly bitter. But it could be the rain.
I am feeling a lot of things. My heart is overwhelmed and my head hurts from thinking things through a million times. Alford is still my favorite place, because it is something that doesn't change. There I can be myself. I can do silly swing dances with Janna and Crystal, hug Grant for as long as I want to, and fall asleep on center stage. No one thinks I'm dramatic or emotional or ignorant. They just love. We all love there. I'm commended and thrown around and teased. Boys pick me up off the floor and look at me and offer a cheek for a kiss. No questions asked. No ties between us except genuine affection.
My room feels like home sometimes, and sometimes it doesn't. Connecticut feels like home. I miss the East Coast. I miss my parents. I can't wait to see them tomorrow. I am mellow today.
If you don't feel anything, you can't be hurt or upset. If you don't get your hopes up, you don't get let down. And when nice things happen, you are pleasantly surprised. As you grow up, you deal with disappointment much more gracefully. Or at least you try.
8 days until Christmas break. 16 days until Christmas.
It's about time.
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Wednesday, December 08, 2004
Dumb people bother me.
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Tuesday, December 07, 2004
I miss the girls of the summer. Here's the list they made up over the summer when we were studying Proverbs 31. I found it and it made me remember them and miss them.
The Perfect Man
- Faithful
- Loving
- Family man
- Humorous
- Doesn't hang up on me
- Challenges me
- Plays the guitar
- Cooks
- Committed
- Trusting
- Patient
- Sings to me
- Good listener
- Mediterranean
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Monday, December 06, 2004
I am back from Scott Air Force base, a little older, a little more relaxed, a little sleepier. Illinois was amazing. The boys were so good to us girls, as they always are. General and Mrs. Self, who Christe, Lauren and I stayed with, treated us like queens, and the ceremony for General Reno was beautiful. We had a trip full of padiddles, "Mean Girls", "Elf", pillow fights, tickle wars, too much food, Legos, late night talks and giggles. I wish it could have lasted another week, but that still probably wouldn't have been enough.
To let you share a little of my sunshine from the weekend, pictures are included below.
Back to studying.
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Outside the Arch, before eating dinner at Friendly's. It was chilly in St. Louis, but with hotties like this around me, who needed a jacket?
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Josh, Lauren, Christe, Jeremy and me in front of the Christmas tree in downtown St. Louis. There were lights everywhere, and it was so pretty. I heart Christmas lights.
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After dinner, Christe and Lauren see a revolving door, and can't resist the urge to reinact a scene from "Elf". Will Ferrell has nothing on these ladies.
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The five of us doing what we do best - eating, of course.
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Lauren, Jeremy, me, Josh, and Christe behind the bar at Dr. Jazz's. Don't worry - they didn't let us serve any customers! Some of us are dangerous in the kitchen.. althought we did learn the art of making eggs this weekend.
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